meggy

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 15:22:11 GMT

You Are A: Duckling!

The cutest of the cute, these baby ducks are often spotted in the spring following closely behind their mother. As a duckling you will grow up quickly, becoming one of the adult ducks seen commonly in ponds and streams. Playful and timid, charming and vulnerable, ducklings are nature's very definition of innocence.

You were almost a: Duck or a Bunny
You are least like a: Groundhog or a Turtle What Cute Animal Are You?

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 18:23:02 GMT

So I've come to the conclusion that I'm just stupid. I do stupid things, and say stupid things, and think stupid things. And I just can't stop being stupid.
I went to the mall yesterday, and stopped at one of those lil jewelry counters in the middle of the mall, and was bullshittin with the girls that worked there. So, after I spent $150 and got my ears pierced again, they were like begging me to work there. I was looking for a second job anyway so, im excited. It'll just be from October to December tho, but thats ok.
Damien starts school tomorrow, he's way too excited about it. Its starting to drive me crazy. And all he keeps talking about is how he wants to play soccer. He was doin karate for awhile, but i guess he decided he didnt want to do that anymore.

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 23:10:29 GMT

I really wish I could go back to bein like.. 14 again. School sucked n everything but shit was so much easier then. Im tired of working and paying bills and it just never ever ends, and Im only 21. I gotta do this for the rest of my life.
I hate my job. Really in the past couple weeks Ive been hating waking up and getting ready and going in there and sitting there for 8 hours next to the same people every single day. Eventually you run out of things to talk about with them. They know almost everything about you. I applied for another job, but havent heard anything from them yet.
I totally hate being single. Well, no... not entirely. I hate not havin anyone else sleepin in my bed. I hate not bein able to pick up the phone and call someone when you really need to talk. I hate like, having to make an effort to like go out with people. And then once I do go out, I always feel like I gotta hide so people dont see me and go back and tell "him"(you guys know who im talkin about). But I like being able to go out and do whatever and not have to worry about what someone is gonna say. I really dont know what I want right now. and that sucks too.
I keep makin plans to go to DelTech and register for classes and my mom keeps screwin my plans up and its upsetting me. I get her to watch Damien for me so I can go up there and then she ends up doin somethin else and I sure as hell cant take D up there with me. I almost feel like she doesnt want me to go back to school, like she doesnt believe that I can work full time, take care of my lil men, and go to school. But I sure as hell cant keep livin like i am now so I gotta do somethin but I cant do it all on my own.
Eh, I dont know. Life just sucks huh? lol <3

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 15:56:33 GMT

I just typed out this whole big entry, and something happened and live journal lost it all. Im very upset right now. So, Im gonna try and remember everything I had to say, tho Im sure it wont work.
Tuesday I went out to East End for the very first time. It was ok. I was happy to see Cassi show up. I hadn't seen her in awhile. I spent most of the time there outside talking to her.
Friday night I went out with Cassi and got a tattoo of an african violet on my wrist. It was my grandfathers favorite flavor and I wanted to get something for him. Everyone says it looks like the paw print from blues clues but I dont think it does, I think its pretty and thats all that matters..lol. After my tattoo, Cassi and I went to Dennys and then to Christiana Pub. I met up with this girl that I work with who is friends with everyone Im friends with, but I hadnt met her before she started working with me. I wasnt sure I was going to like her when she first started working there, but shes real cool. I got drunk at the bar..lol..so that was nice, but I wasnt as drunk as some other people are making it seem. lol
Saturday I met up with Staci Roo and we went to McDonalds and then later that night stopped by Fantasia for like an hour and then met up with Brians drunk ass self. I feel bad cuz I didnt have any like real plans for something to do all night so next time I'll have to get advanced notice of when Staci's comin out and get everyone together. I know what its like to only be able to get out of the house by yourself every once in awhile and it sucks when you can finally go out and theres nothing to do. So, I'll be more prepared next time. lol
Damiens spent so much time at my moms house this week. I came to pick him up this morning and he gave me a big hug and said 'i missed you'. So I kinda feel bad now but I know he loves my mom and loves spending time here with her. So this weekend coming up I know Im not gonna be goin out, I'll have both the kids and we have a birthday party to go to on Saturday. Im gonna try and come out one night during the week, prolly Tuesday night. But Im not sure. As long as I can get out the house 1 night a week I should be ok. lol.
So I think thats about all Ive done so far this weekend. I think I might stop by Tee's bbq today for a lil. Im tryin to go out and see some fireworks somewhere, but I dont know of anyone having them tonight other then the Blue Rocks and I dont feel like goin up there.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 16:51:13 GMT

I wonder if anyone even reads this anymore. I keep forgetting I have it and that I need to update. So, where to begin?
Gil and I broke up a couple months ago, he's stupid and I'll just leave it at that. I love being single, and bein able to go out and do whatever I want and not have to worry about anyone gettin pissed off at me. The only thing I miss about bein in a relationship is sleepin alone, cuz that sucks, but I'll get over it.. lol.
My Grandfather died on Memorial Day from Lou Gehrigs Disease. It sucked real bad. Im glad he passed cuz he was in so much pain and he lost his ability to walk and talk and everything, but I miss him so much. The funeral for him was so beautiful tho. Most of the things my grandfather had planned before he passed which made it even harder, but Im glad he got the funeral that he wanted to have. There were 800 people that showed up for the funeral, A lot of the people could'nt even fit in the church, we had to hook up tv's in the kitchen of the church so people could sit in there and watch. Most days I do good and dont cry, and then other days, I just want to cry all day cuz everything I see reminds me of him. Every time I cut my food, I think of him cuz he's the one that taught me how to do it. Every time I watch a Phillies game, I think of him. Damien talks about his PopPop a lot. He says he misses him and he wants to go to heaven to see him. I think he's slowing understanding that PopPop isnt here anymore and he wont be able to see him.
Since Gil and I have broken up, Ive been wanting to go out more. Ive been stuck in my house since I was 16, and now I'm ready to go out. But I cant. It kinds sucks. I mean, Ive never been the kinda person that would go out every night and party, but I just want the option to be able to get up and leave without having to find a baby sitter or whatever. And I dont have that option. Im sure I'll get over that eventually too just like everything else. lol oh well. Most of the time tho I dont even care, cuz people come over to my house. The lady that lives under me is a bitch tho, but I havent had any problems with her recently. So I'll just start having parties at my house from now on. lol.
Im still at my job, I've been there 2 1/2 years now. Im ready to go find another job. I love my job, but Im not making nearly enough money. Im just scared. Cuz, what if I find another job making more money, but I hate it? The job I have now, I dont mind going into every morning. I love the people I work with. Its a real laid back place, but I just need more money. Im planning on going back to school in the fall, taking online classes or the video classes since I wont be able to work full time, take care of 2 kids, and physically go into school a couple nights a week. I just need to figure out what I want to major in. I think Im just gonna go without a major for now and take the basic classes like math and english and whatever until I figure it out.
Damiens gettin real big. He's starting Kindergarten in the fall. I cant believe he's starting school. 5 years has gone by real fast. Luis is gettin big too. He's starting to talk and everything. I had to switch their daycare cuz I was having problems with the daycare they were going to. They would call me at least once a week to come pick one of them up cuz they said they were sick. But once I actually got the kids home, they werent sick.. they were fine. So I had a meeting with the director of the daycare and she said that I was neglecting my children and all this bullshit. So needless to say I took my children out of there. I think they're doing good at the new daycare tho..Damien says he likes it, and I think Luis likes it.. he doesnt cry or anything when I leave so that's always a good thing.
Alright, so I think I've said enough for now. Im gonna try and update more often then every 6 months. lol

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 00:32:13 GMT

Im all done my christmas shopping! yay! I got Damien a power rangers outfit and some power rangers boxers, a Woody and Jessie doll thing from Toy Story 2, some Incredibles action figure things that talk and those crayola markers that only color on special paper. I got luis some of those blocks that fisher price makes and theyre like clear block with figurines in them... iuno but theyre cute and I got him an elmo doll that sings the Sesame Street song in English and in Spanish. Im sure he'll love that.. he Loves Elmo. Other then seeing the kid open their presents, im not looking forward to Christmas. It just wont be exciting. Im looking forward to March.. getting my tax return. Should be nice this year, even nicer then it was last year. On Friday I have my Christmas party for work. Last year they gave us $100 bonus, I hope its more this year but I doubt it will be. Ok, well I guess its about time for me n the kids to be goin home.. its so boring at my house. oh well.

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 18:20:16 GMT

hmmm.. ok, where to begin. My vacation to Puerto Rico was wonderful. I didnt want to leave. It was soooo nice and warm down there. We're planning on going back once the tax returns come back. Im excited. Luis is gettin big. He went to the doctors like last week sometime, and hes 26 pounds. He just about breaks my arms when i try to carry him down the steps. Uhmmm... everything with Damien is fine. He's going to be starting his new school soon. A bus is going to pick him up at his daycare three mornings a week and he'll go to Brader Elementary school for a couple hours so that he can get his speech therapy and all that good stuff. Normally they would just do it at his daycare but they think he may have some attention problems so they thought it would be better to take him out of the daycare to do it. Well, nothing exciting has been going on... we're getting ready for Christmas. We've got our tree up and all the decorations out. Im excited. My first Christmas all by myself. I need to get Damien a couple more presents but other then him, Im done. Well, Damiens buggin me to leave. We're going to see the Spongebob movie so we better get going. Bye <333

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Sun, 12 Sep 2004 16:07:08 GMT

good lord, has it really already been like a month n a half since I updated?! this year is goin by too freakin fast. I cant believe its already the middle of September, Christmas is just around the corner. Not that Christmas will be real exciting this year considering I have very little extra spending money. oh well. Im going on vacation! I leave on October 4th and come home October 11. Im going to Puerto Rico. Well, me gil and the baby are going. Damiens staying home with mommom so he doesnt miss school (we also would have had to buy him his own plane ticket if he was coming, that got a lil expensive). So, Im excited. I need a vacation real bad. Getting out of Delaware for a week and not having to worry about work or anything will be lovely. Alright, well, Im bored. Im at work. Every 5 weekends I have to work all weekend, but then I have off the next Thursday and Friday, so thats nice.. its just a real pain in the ass working all weekend, I hate it. So, I guess thats all Ive basically got to say. I mean, I dont really do anything anymore. I work, go home, take care of the kids and sleep. Exciting huh? lol.

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Sun, 25 Jul 2004 00:14:21 GMT

Alright, so I just spent the past hour or so reading all of my old posts and all the old comments that went along with them...damn its interesting, well to me anyway. Its funny to hear me talk about things as they were just beginning and then to see how things are now. Like, I talked about Damien starting his daycare and hes now been at the daycare just about 2 years. and then there's things in there about McGuck and how he was seeing Damien all the time, and now they havent seen each other in months. and things about when me n gil first started talking.... and look at us now.. we have a kid. lol, its fckn crazy. Damiens birthday is in 9 days. He'll be 4, time flies. It feels like just yesterday that I had him. Although, when I really sit and think about it, a lot has happened in these 4 years. and 1 thing that really pisses me off the most about the past couple years, is that all these people were just steady talkin shit on me and I have no idea why. Im sure there really was no reason other then they had nothing better to do, but that really pisses me off. Like, what was the point in trying to make my life hell? It didnt even really effect me other then just getting on my nerves. Eh, oh well.. stupid petty shit really I suppose. So, Im excited about my 21st birthday, even though Ive got like 2 months to go still. As far as I know, me and gil and damien n luis will be going to puerto rico for like a week for my birthday. Im excited. I get to go somewhere, and it'll almost be a vacation lol . Alright well, I need to be getting home. Im exhausted and Damien is getting on my moms nerves, and Luis has been passed out for like 2 hours now so he needs to wake up n eat some dinner. Goodbye my lovely people. I will prolly be back next week. if you need me, call my house @ 369-5309. I have caller ID so if I dont answer, you may know why ;D

long time no talk

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 16:43:55 GMT

Alright, so I know its been awhile, but Ive been super busy. I had the baby on March 3. We named him Luis Xavier Vega-Hollyday. Its funny how things work out. The one thing I was so scared of happening, did happen. My water broke with him while I was at the Hudson Center for a WIC appointment. and it didnt just break a lil bit, it broke the whole way. It was disgusting. So my water broke around 1:30pm, got to the hospital at like 2ish, and he was born at 4:10pm. talk about a quick labor. but good lord it was painful, more painful then Damiens labor, and I couldnt get an epidural this time either cuz by the time I wanted one, I was already fully dialated, eh.. oh well. so Damien loves him to death, Im so glad. We moved into an apartment at the end of March. Its nice, a 2 bedroom private entrance, and the best part, I only pay $585 a month. Luis had to go to the hospital when he was just about a month old because he would have their episodes where he would cough n then just stop breathing. So he was in there about a week and they said it was because he has reflux. and when he would reflux, he didnt know if he should throw up or swallow it and he would get confused and just start choking. I dont know how much I believe that, but he's all better now.. so, I guess it doesn't really matter. I still have my job, Ive been there a year and 4 months. Its goin good. They've finally officially made me full time. Damiens still goin to daycare, the same daycare hes been goin to for almost 2 years, and still loves it to death. Hes basically completely potty trained too. Every once in a while he'll have an accident, but thats normal. Im so proud of him. He'll be 4 in August, I'd like to take him to Dutch Wonderland for the weekend, just the two of us... but I dont know if I'll be able to afford that. Im really strugglin with my bills and all. Gils still around. He's absolutely wonderful with Luis and with Damien. He'll take both of them for me for a couple hours so I can go out and just relax for a lil while by myself. Im so thankful he loves Damien like he does. and my mom is spoiling the crap outta Damien. I think its worse now then it was when we were all living together. She usually takes Damien over night like 2 days a week. Its great, Damien loves it and I love the break I get. So, I guess thats all for now. Im gonna TRY to update weekly. I usually come over to my moms house on Saturdays to do my laundry so I'll try to update then while I'm there. If anyone needs me, call my cell phone, if you don't have the number, sucks for you ;D

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 22:33:08 GMT

so, christmas didnt suck as bad as i thought it would. i woke damien up at 6am so we could open the presents before i went to work. then i went to work from 8-4 and went to my aunts house for dinner after i left work. all i got for christmas was stuff for my apartment, which i dont even have yet. its ok tho, cuz now i dont have to worry about anything but like food n stuff when i move. damien got a whole buncha... stuff.

I went out today and bought damien a new bed. im using his crib for the baby, so i needed a bed for him. he's real excited about sleeping in it tonight. He's been doing real good with potty training too. He pees in the potty all the time, now i jus gotta get him to poop in it. altho, im just glad he got the peeing part down... so im not pushin the poop part just yet.

New years eve i didnt do anything.. like usual. me n gil went to his brothers house, they were all drunk n baggin me up... n then we came home n went to sleep... talk about exciting.. hah.

My mom took damien to the doctor yesterday, hes got a sinus infection, an ear infection, and they think he has asthma... the kinda asthma where you start coughin real bad n stuff after youve been exercising. so we have to get him this breathing machine thing and give him breathing treatments twice a day. im sure itll be a pain in the ass to do, but if it makes him feel better, then oh well.

My jobs goin good. They still havent made me full time yet, but im working full time hours. I dont really care, cuz i dont need their benefits.. i have medicaid, but it would be nice to get vacation and sick time.

I wanna take a vacation... to anywhere besides here jersey or maryland. so, if someones feeling nice and wants to pay for me to go on vacation... lemme know! i wont be picky bout where i wanna go. lol.

so, im done. im sure your tired of reading about nothingness. ill write some more in another couple months im sure. lol

christmas

Tue, 18 Nov 2003 01:08:22 GMT

For the past couple days ive been all about Christmas. Goin out Christmas shoppin while ive got the money and everything. The one time in a couple years that ive actually been excited about Christmas. I go to work this morning, and i hear a lil rumor that i may have to work Christmas day. I talk to my boss about it, and ... surprise ... its no rumor. I have to work 8am - 4pm Christmas day. Im more then a lil pissed off... seriously, i could almost cry over this. Christmas is the only holiday that is huge in my family. I have to work the day on Christmas Eve, the day on Christmas, and the morning on the Sunday after Christmas. I jus think its real fucked up. Im gonna talk to my boss tomorrow prolly and see how much im gonna be paid on Christmas.. it better be like double time and a half or some shit like that.... even double time and a half isnt that much money... $25/hr. $25/hr to me isnt worth missing Christmas. Im seriously like pissed to the point where, if i could, id prolly quit my job. I dont think its fair at all to jus spring this on me 6 weeks before Christmas. But, i dont have much of a choice. I need a job, specially since im movin out in a couple weeks. blah ... iuno. im pissed.

Tue, 07 Oct 2003 21:19:07 GMT

So I went for an ultrasound this morning, and... im having a boy. I knew I was, I just felt it... but i was really hoping for a girl. oh well, damien will have someone to play with eventually... if they dont hate each other. So Im due March 6, but I still say Im gonna have the baby in February.

Im sick. I have a cold and I feel like crap. Im not allowed to take anything for it either. My Dr. told me to eat chicken noodle soup n take a shower. lol. I tried that last night, and the soup helped temporarily, and so did the shower... but it doesnt last long.

Damiens doin good. The whole potty training thing sucks balls. I try lettin him run around the house butt ass naked... and he pees on the floor and just laughs. So, i dunno what to do.

I still got my job. Its boring as hell, but i basically get paid to sit on the computer all day, so whatever works.

I still need a place to live tho. I got approved for a place in Lexington Green, but I dont really wanna live there. So, somebody with a job get a place with me!

Tue, 19 Aug 2003 23:35:46 GMT

so, yeah, im tired of puking. i thought it was supposed to get better as time goes on .. but mines just getting worse.

work is going good. this one person from customer service left.. so instead of hiring someone new to do what she does, they just split her job up between me and like 3 other people. so, im hoping to be able to get more hours in. and hopefully, ill be able to stop doing telemarketing and just be so busy with this new stuff to only work on that, but i doubt it.

i want friends. i wanna be able to go out all the time like i used to do a couple months ago. well, no wait, i actually probably could go out all the time now if i wanted to, but ive been too tired to really do anything. i come home from work, watch a lil tv, eat some dinner, get online and then im ready for bed. and its so hard to go out and do stuff with people cuz all people do around here is sit around and get drunk. its no fun watching drunk people. specially stupid drunk girls </3 so i talked to the asshole rican today. i called him at work cuz i wanted my head unit back and i had let him use it. and he's like.. 'its gone.' and he wouldnt tell me anything other then 'its just gone'. im sure he still has it he just doesnt wanna give it back to me like the asshole that he is. so yeah, he can go to hell. im soooooooo tempted to call his girl n jus tell her everything. i have her number too. but i know if i do, its not gonna make him want to be around his kid even more then he doesnt wanna be around it now. so i think thats all for now. lol =]........... oh wait .. if anyone wants to get an apartment with me.. lemme know! i have 6 months to be outta my house

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 15:32:00 GMT

mmk. so. update time. I still got my job .. lol. im hoping to go full time soon, i talked to my boss about it a couple weeks ago and he said he'd look around n see if they can find a spot for me full time and he'd get back to me. cept he hasnt gotten back to me yet.
damiens birthday is this saturday.. yay! hes gonna be 3. we're working on potty training. hes doing really good with it at daycare, but he usually doesnt go at home. everything with mcguck is going fine ... for the most part.
i have such a boring life .. lol .. i dont even know what else to talk about. So, i guess thats about it for now. if i think of something more interesting to talk about .. then, ill update again.. but dont be expecting anything .. heh =]

yes, i know.. its been awhile

Sat, 28 Jun 2003 02:20:06 GMT

first off... yes, i still have my job! go me! 3 months is usually like a cut off point for me.. like once ive been at a job for 3 months, i get tired of it and quit.. the longest job i had was at babys r us n that was for 9 months.. ima try and make it at least a year at this job, but who knows.
second off .. uhmm.. i dunno. not a whole lot has been going on. ive come to the conclusion that when im pissed off, im psycho. i say some stupid shit when im mad.. but, who doesnt?
my legs hurt. me, damien, shauna, n some of shaunas friends went to the corpus christi carnival tonight. it was fun.. kinda. shaunas friends kept like walkin around and damien started buggin cuz he wanted to go on some rides, so we kinda left em for a lil and did the rides ourselves... and then shauna met back up with us and stuff.
today was payday... i went shopping. i should never be allowed back in kohls when i have a lot of money on me. i didnt even spend that much, but it was more then i had told myself i was going to spend. i ended up spending $60, i got 6 tanktops and 3 pairs of shorts for myself, and 2 shirts and 2 pairs of shorts for damien. nothing i spent cost more then $6, i was proud of myself. me and damien really needed some summer clothes.
well, dont i just have the most boring life. ive been doing absolutely nothing, but thats ok, because i dont really want to be doing anything. im jus kinda goin with the flow.. doin my own thing... and i love it.
so, yep .. be glad i updated ;D

Mon, 19 May 2003 19:15:34 GMT

so, i went to wildwood over the weekend to see cassi and sandi. i had fun. i miss my cassi.. and i missed sandi too even tho we've kinda fallen off the past few years, but all was good. i didnt wanna leave. ill have to go back again sometime soon. i was kinda pissed off just getting there tho, mely.. in her drunken state of mind.. told me to go 55 north n jus follow it... well, 55 north takes you to philly, not wildwood... so i had to turn around and go from philly to wildwood.. it took 3 hours, but i eventually got there.
and then this morning, i was supposed to be at work at 9, well.. i didnt wake up until 10:30.. so even if i wanted to go to work then, i couldnt because damiens daycare doesnt any kids after 9:30.. and i didnt want to call my grandmom or anything jus cuz she ALWAYS watches damien for me. my moms prolly gonna be pissed, but oh well.
so yeah, thats about it, i think. <33

Sun, 04 May 2003 22:00:00 GMT

so, time for an update again. i still have my job, yay for me. but theyre changing what im doing, not a lot, but oh well. instead of doing telemarketing n like selling the stuff to other businesses to use, ima do telemarketing n sell the stuff to people who are gonna turn around n sell our product for a profit for them. if that makes any sense to any of you. heh. so, hopefully, ill be making more money this way. Ive still got my car, yay for me again. ive decided im going to start making a car payment with each of my paychecks.. jus cuz i dont really feel like paying on my car until 2008. and if i get ahead on the payments now, and something bad happens later on down the line.. ill be able to go a couple months without making a payment if i need to.
people keep telling me theyre worried about me and some of the things im doing with a certain other person. and i just dont understand it. PEOPLE, IM A BIG GIRL, I KNOW HOW TO HANDLE MYSELF. im not 12, and its not like i havent had other relationships like this before, i know what to do. like, im flattered that people care enough to say something to me, but seriously, its jus comin from so many people that its starting to get old. and sometimes, i just get pissed off at people because they assume that i dont know what certain things are like and that i dont know how to handle myself or im gonna get so wrapped up into something and not see what is really going on. Im not blind.
So, as far as school goes. Im gonna try and go back in the summer time, but i dont know if im gonna make the cut off, so i may wait until fall. but im doing the whole career counseling thing cuz i cant figure out exactly what i wanna do. like, i started doing criminal justice, changed that and started doing drug and alcohol counseling, and now im thinking that i might want to change that too. theres just so many different things that i think i want to do, and i just cant decide. so hopefully, this will help.
Cassi and Sandi... i hope you guys have fun at the beach! im jealous of you.. heh. ima come n visit real soon tho. heh <33333333333

Thu, 10 Apr 2003 20:11:11 GMT

ok, where to start. so that job i got, well, i still have, and im makin $10/hr.. more then i originally thought. I got a new car. 2002 cavalier LS sport. its pretty. damien is a mess. Hes got strep throat, tonsilitis, he's allergic to the snap things on jeans and to bandaids, and he may have broken his nose... all in the course of two weeks. I now have strep throat as well. I feel like crap. uhmm.. yah know whats sad? i havent updated here in like a month or two.. and i dont have shit to say. nothing terribly exciting has been going on... but does anything exciting ever go on? not really. Im lookin for something to do this weekend. know anything? lemme know. =]

Wed, 26 Feb 2003 01:49:07 GMT

so i finally got a job. its jus doin some damn telemarketing at this place called the conference group, but i dont even care. its a job, i'll be makin $8.50/hr, workin around 30 hours a week so it'll work out great when i go back to school in the summer. now that i got a job, ill be able to get a car, as long as my mom or someone can co-sign for me. i talked to my mom about it and she said that she'd rather have someone else sign cuz she thinks i wont quit my job so easily if someone elses money is on the line other then hers. i got kinda pissed off about that cuz ive never screwd my mom over on money. when i got my check from school, i gave her $1,000... which is more money then i kept for myself. i pay my mom $150 a month on time every month for my car insurance bill. i pay my cell phone bill on time every month, except for this month.. i had to borrow $65 from my mom cuz the bill was more expensive then i thought it was gonna be but its not like im not gonna pay her back for that. the only time i tell my mom im gonna pay her back and dont is when i borrow like $5 or some stupid amount like that. i just dont understand why she thinks im so irresponsible. i mean, yeah, my past couple jobs ive quit after a short amount of time jus cuz i felt like it or whatever... but i soooooooo cant do that this time... and i dont want to do that again. it took me too long to find this job and hell if im gonna jus give it up like that. nah mean? i just need a new car. this thing is falling apart like its supposed to or something. and its not like i just want a car for the hell of it. i NEED a car. i cant do anything if i dont have one. but anywayz, damiens doin real good. his words are gettin so clear. you can almost understand every word he says. well, im gonna go pick jon up from work now. if anyone wants to co-sign on a car for me.. lemme know. heh =]

Sun, 09 Feb 2003 15:43:52 GMT

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Sat, 01 Feb 2003 01:03:09 GMT

so.. time for an update. not a whole lot is going on. I have to withdraw from this semester at school, which sucks, but.. oh well. this semester has jus gotten off to a shitty start. my car was bein queer n kept stallin just for the hell of it. so i took it to saturn and got it fixed.. actually, my mom got it fixed, but it cost $750. i wish i just could have gotten a new car, but we have no money for that. and damien was sick for awhile. hes getting better finally tho. Ive been filling out so many applications for jobs lately, its not even funny. i think i may have one job tho. its for a fulltime shampooist at this hair place in pike creek. im supposed to go up there on wednesday for a couple hours so i can decide wether this is a job that i think i could do for 8 hours a day 5 days a week. But i think im gonna like it, its just washin hair and cleaning n stuff, which i do everyday around the house anywayz. altho i did put in an application at the cadillac dealership in wilmington today for a receptionist job. it would be cool if i got that job... i'd get to sit and stare at escalades all day -drools-. i dunno, as long as i get some job sometime, i'll be alright. but i HAVE to go back to school in the summer. my mom is gonna make me and gil said he'd never talk to me again if i didnt go back... so, yah know.. heh. i cant quit anyway cuz i dont wanna be like washin hair for the rest of my life or anything like that. so, if anyone knows of any places that are hirin.. lemme know! i really hope i get this job at the hair place tho. cuz its full time, monday through friday.. no nights.. which is soo perfect. I havent really been doin a whole lot lately.. theres not really a whole lot to do when your broke. Fantasia was a lot of fun tho. I could have spent a whole lotta money. Im just glad i didnt have a lot of money to spend. Oh... and to all of you people who like 50 cent... get the new cd... omg its hott!! yes yes i know it doesnt come out til Feb. 11th... but, i got anywayz... so hah on you. i hate those cds where theres only like 3 or 4 good songs... but this cd is not like them.. alllll the songs are good. i should get paid for sayin that about his cd, but i didnt pay for the cd so its the least i can do.. heh. anywayz, ive been in a real good mood today. actually, for the most part, i been in a real good mood all year. my new years resolution was not to let stupid petty lil things bother me.. and its worked so far. so, im gonna go find some trouble to get into now.. hah. <3

blah

Thu, 16 Jan 2003 22:50:59 GMT

so i went n switched my major tuesday.. its now drug and alcohol counseling. my schedule sucks tho. im taking a telecourse that i do at home, so that gives me two extra days off but on tuesdays n thursdays i have a class at stanton from 10 - 11:20 and then i have a class in wilmington at 11:30.. so ima have to do something about that... i didnt even go to that class today. and then i have a class in wilmington at 2. and on my way to that class today, my car decided it wanted to die in them middle of 141. im really about to like... total my car, its pissing me off and no one has any idea whats wrong with it. im taking it to the saturn dealership tomorrow at 2 so they can look at it. theyre gonna charge soo much money.. and my mom has to pay for it. i feel kinda bad, but oh well... theres nothing i can do about it. I been looking for a job, put in a couple apps. so now im just waiting to hear. as of right now, im willing to quit school for awhile just so i can get a job. i NEED a new car, theres no way around it.. and i dont really feel like having my mom buy me one cuz im already in debt to her for $500. my mom tried calling my dad a couple days ago cuz when they got a divorce he agreed to support me and pay for half of my college until im done... and now hes tryin to be a dick and back out of it. he said he'd call my mom back by the end of the week and let her know if he'll do it or not but if he says he wont do it.. my moms gonna take him to court cuz he HAS to do it. Mcguck gets damien now from noon on saturday til noon on sunday every other week. It'll be interesting this first weekend to see how it goes. Im kinda excited about having a night to do whatever i want, but i doubt i'll do anything. Ive just been in a bad mood lately cuz of my car n school n everything. I wish there was always answers to everything.. heh. but, thats life.

happy new years eve.

Tue, 31 Dec 2002 13:29:10 GMT

this new years eve is gonna suck... like all the past new years eves have sucked. I was pretty excited yesterday, someone offered to give me their ID since they werent going out.. so i was thinking maybe i could go out with *him* and spend new years eve at whatever bar they are going to... but when i talked to him, i completely forgot to tell him about it, so i kept trying to call him last night, but he didnt answer his phone. so, im in a bad mood. me n mely were talkin about gettin a room or whatever, but ive got $13.. which isnt enough to get a room. and as of right now, i dont feel like going out. I'll prolly end up staying home, going to bed around 8 or so.. and that being it. exciting huh? i hate being in bad moods. they suck.